September summary and losses

Another month just passed... I wanted to write about all the progress I made and inspire you with some big words... Fuck it... I won't. Let's be honest... I've been pushing myself to write this for last 3 days and today I promised myself to go far a run in rain when I finish this... I used to love running in rain; now... I don't love running anymore but I still run... and cry... I should write something like:"It's healing..." blah, blah, blah... it's not... but it's good training and at least I hope I will sleep a bit tonight...

First I wanted to sum up few things I accomplished last month:

1) I finally got myself a dentist appointment... You might think that that's not a big deal... It is for me.

2) I painted on a snowboard. It's so far the biggest painting for me.

3) I went ski touring - opening winter season 24-25.

4) I stopped drinking for a while.

5) I climbed harder than ever..

... and at the end of September, one of my close friends and mentors, Paul passed away... I know, he was sick and in pain... But it still hurts...  I knew him for 15 years. He was one of the people who were there for me last year... He could explain the most complex things the way even I understood... I'm grieving him with our friends...

Paul explaining me how to keep pressure over my outside ski...

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