New Year's resolutions in theory

Are you one of the people who start every January with something along the lines "New Year, New Me..." or with a long list of things they want to do and change in their life?

I used to be. Last few years I'd rather start when I get an idea to change something about myself. For example, I've always been drinking 2 coffees in morning. Beginning of November last year I decided to quit. And just like that I managed to drink about 3 coffees in over 2 months.

Fair enough, it was not quite out of nowhere. Since June 2023, since I started to suffer from depressions, I couldn't sleep. I still struggle with that... but clearly it was not the coffee.

I would like to inspire you to change something you don't like about yourself. Let's grab a piece of paper and write first thing that comes to your mind.

WRITE JUST ONE THING PLEASE!!!!!

I wrote, follow your set evening routine. Sorry, that's not the one thing I don't like about myself. I hate about myself that I can waste evening doing nothing, scrolling on my phone for hours. Or even wasting entire day. When I'm emotionally down, I would just sit around and watch videos on social media. And after the whole day wasted I blame myself feeling even worse than in the morning...

Let me give you a real example: I've had several days off, beautiful days off, sunny, perfect weather ( I live in a small ski resort surrounded by beautiful mountains, so appreciating shouldn't be a problem, right?) and I stayed the whole time inside in my small apartment staring at the screen of my phone.

When you are struggling with depression you want to avoid contact with people. At least, I do.

In November last year, I decided to go outside everyday, NO MATTER WHAT!!! I tried this few times over the last year and half... but I couldn't stick with it.. I work long hours and sometimes I just don't have time to go outside, or it's too early, too late, too cold, dark, etc... EXCUSES...

But in November something clicked within my demons (I call my depressions my demons) and they started to work with me. FINALLY!

When, I was planning to go for my evening run, I took my running gear to work, changed and went. I would have an extra snack so I couldn't use the excuse that I'm hungry. If I was tired, I had a plan B with shorter variation. It took some preplanning and persuading my lazy self, but it payed off...

For this New Year's Eve and Day I took days off... I work pretty much straight through Christmas all the way until the 30th. That day I started to thing about how tired I'm, how I don't feel like doing nothing the next 2 days... EXCUSES AGAIN!!! I planned this ski tour in November. It was a big trip and I wasn't sure if I can make it braking the trail in snow for 12 hours. On 30th I decided that my plan B would be only to get to the next mountain hut. Only about 6 hours breaking the trail in snow...

I took off in the morning. I had several moments when I almost turned around... I didn't. I'm stubborn as hell...

... and this was my reward:

Monte Rosa Hut, Switzerland, New Year'25

I want to encourage you to set one or two things to do today and follow through.

xxxx

And I want to tell you I'm proud of you for making it through.

Love, Lubka